As the semester comes to a close, there is a certain level of stress that comes with that. Oh, but this is a special amount of super stress.
I just returned to my university to continue the program I stopped a few years ago, studying computer science. Boy are some of these classes making me take a beating. Sometimes it is nice to see that even years out of college, I am still occasionally having the highest scored test in the class. I’m still getting mainly As and Bs, but there have been some Cs, Ds, and even Fs.
I have many classes that I don’t even stay awake in anymore. I had been trying to address my sleep issue before returning to school, but no such luck. And now I’m scraping and clawing to pass. I guess if I don’t I’ll handle that then.
But, behold a bright side! I had sleep study done a week ago. My doctor indicated Friday that I have narcolepsy. I’m going in tomorrow to discuss option for treatment. It’s a bit late into the semester, but, hell I’m getting answers!
Oh and added to my stress, a week ago Thursday, I found a lump on one of my testicles. I rationally knew it was a cyst, but that fear crept in that it was cancer. I endured a week of being unable to focus on anything else. But I got my answer before the weekend confirmed it was a cyst.
I’m also trying to move into a new place with my fiance, there have been additional events precipitating the extra need to move in with her, not good things. But hell, again, some of this change is good, even if bad change walks along side it.
I have friends and family that won’t let me down and I will find my way, I’ve come out of far worse, and I’ve endured it all.
Here’s to the new things, the fresh perspective on which I will build my life.